Thursday, June 27, 2013

I Survived A Suicide Attempt Only To Find Out I Have Cancer

Welcome to my world!

I haven't blogged in a while.  Part of me is distracted by the cancer diagnosis.  Part of me just can't keep up with the bullshit of 2013 life.

I was diagnosed with breast cancer two days ago.  I am still trying to wrap my head around this. 

My daughter hasn't responded to any of my phone calls or texts in a year, even after I indicated I have cancer.  Draw your own conclusions.


Bob said...

When I knew I had a serious prostate problem, I called my sister, from whom I was estranged, to let her know I was freaked out & about to put myself in the hospital, & a followup call when I was out & switching to a specialist. She actually called my friend Gina up the street, who helped me a lot, I don't think Gina was impressed. She never told me exactly what they spoke about, but I think my sister confirmed what I said about her. Gina became very sisterly. I suspect my sister may have offered Gina money to help, which would have been the absolutely worst thing to do. But through the entire year, not a call, not an e mail to me to see how I was doing. Anyway, I hope your daughter sees the open door.

Tony said...

I am sorry about your diagnosis Carrie, but breast cancer is pretty treatable now, if caught early enough. My aunt was diagnosed in 1984 with stage 3 breast cancer and her doctor gave her 6 months to a year to live, so she went to another doctor. Almost 30 years later, she is still here. And she is as healthy as can be. I know you too are a fighter, and you will beat this. Sucks about Mercedes, I never would have expected this from her. You have always been a very supportive mother for her, and you deserve much more from her. I wish I could talk some sense into her, and let her realize what she is missing out on. I will keep you in my prayers.

Carrie said...

I know that breast cancer these days is not a death sentence. I am well aware that you can survive this type of cancer more easily. That's a plus. On the negative side ... I have cancer.

I found out my sister also had breast cancer. Two for two in my family. Since there is zero cancer on my mother's side, it has to have come from my father's side.

As for my daughter, I have recently been told by one of her friends that she "wants nothing to do with" me. What can I say? Children will be children and act out from time to time. I am fortunate to have a great group of friends who support me, and my family has always been there, regardless of my tantrums!

She will regret her actions at some point in time.

Arno said...

I've been at loss for words since I first read this post, but let me try to say that you have in within you to get past this, just like you have gotten by other things. Do what your doctors say, and be open to alternatives. Carrie On.

Carrie said...

I am struggling with it but I don't know the extent of the cancer yet. I see the oncologist this Wednesday.

Gord said...

Carrie – Indeed, a lot can be done to treat various types of BC these days. My girlfriend and I have been dealing with her BC these past 2 and 1/2 years. She's doing fine, and will be treating it on into the future. Lots of support available, too. Keep us informed about what the onco says.