Sunday, May 11, 2014

Rest In Peace, DJ Rix

Bob and I became friends about 10 years ago on AOL.  Together we would rile up the right wingers in chat rooms and bask in our success at bringing stupidity front and center.  We were a tag team and had many years of fun on AOL.

In 2005, I decided to start a blog.  Bob had one and I figured, hey, if Bob can do it, so can I.  My blog was extremely political, while Bob’s blog was more diverse.  I remember when he got angry after my very first post on my very first blog got accolades from a prominent political blog, and I was featured front and center. 

Bob was a mentor to me in the world of blogs.  We never met, but we talked from time to time on the telephone.  He knew me at my core, and we shared a world surrounded by depression and anxiety.  He was there for me when I was suicidal.  He was there for me when I was hospitalized.  He was there for me when I was in pain.  He was there during my cancer treatment.  We were bonded in a way only he and I could understand and enjoy.

He called me on May 4 ... I missed the call.  He never answered when I kept calling him back.

I miss him so much.  I will never forget him.  I hope he stays near me.  I have so many friends in the next world (smiling) ... they will take care of him.  I will pray that my family embraces him and helps on his new journey.  At least the depression will be gone.  And the anxiety. 

I love you Bob. 

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Sunday, November 24, 2013

HAIM - The Wire

I heard this group on Diddy's Revolt music channel.  I was "surfing" and passed it, but the beat lingered on, and I went back to the station.  Loved the groove.  Turns out these sisters have a background in performing and music and they are from the valley here in L.A. The back beat got me. 

I tried to upload their song for a few hours (yeah, it gets that bad these days when trying), and finally bought the damn single, twice, for $1.29.  Each single was a remix that I had already downloaded for free.  By the time this was discovered, the song I really wanted was finally downloaded.

Hope you like it.  They are performing on SNL tonight.  The single is not the same as the YouTube video.  I like the video better, but after spending a whopping $2.60 and about four hours, I am done trying to find the right download!


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Sunday, November 17, 2013

Almost Out Of The Woods - Cancer Update

The past four months of chemotherapy has been difficult for me. However, I have made it out of harms way, thus far. It started out as a Stage 2/3 diagnosis of cancer in one breast, and a subsequent discovery of something of interest in the other breast, with a prognosis of worst case scenario of a double mastectomy. The tumor has shrunk such that all outward presentations (i.e., dimpled breast, inverted nipple and a lump) disappeared! The activity in the other breast is a ten year period from doing any harm. So, I will have basically outpatient surgery at Cedars, by Dr. Kristie Funk, early December, to go into the breasts under the nipple, take out the two small masses and remove a couple of lymph nodes, no drastic reconstruction required, fast recovery anticipated. I cannot be any more ecstatic. 

I hope to get back to blogging at the start of the new year.


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Saturday, September 28, 2013

Taking Time Off

As some of my readers already know, I am battling breast cancer. 

My treatment plan is four months of chemotherapy, surgery to remove either one or both breasts (not determined at this time), followed up by radiation therapy, and then breast reconstruction approximately six months later.

Part of beating cancer is having a positive outlook.  I found that blogging interfered with having that positive outlook because I need to get into an angry space to blog about things that are unjust, unfair, wrong, etc.  I never thought about that "space" or frame of mind before because my outlook on life has always been rather uplifting and cheery (yeah, despite my suicide attempt ...).  Now I find that having to stress over the way things are in today's world brings me to a place that interferes with my ability to stay extremely positive about things.

I don't like not blogging especially since so many things are going on right now.  But I have to consider what my chances are for a future, and blogging about politics right now, for me, is not in the cards.

I hope that by the time I have had surgery the worst is over with the cancer, and I can get back to the bar and grill and do what you all love me for the best ... blog!

You can follow my cancer path on Facebook.


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Sunday, August 11, 2013

A Loud Voice In Music Silenced - RIP Eydie Gorme

Showing my age, and also revealing that in addition to being a "hipster" music-wise growing up, I was a fan of old school music.  I LOVED Eydie Gorme and her husband, Steve Lawrence.  Their sound was unique, and I used to pride myself on being able to tell the difference between the sound of Steve Lawrence, Jack Jones and Vic Damone!

Eydie had a big hit in the 1960's called "Blame It On The Bossa Nova," while Steve had huge hits with "Go Away Little Girl," and "Party Doll."

But I enjoyed them the most as perennial guests on the Johnny Carson show!

RIP ...

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