Wednesday, April 01, 2015


The bar will be undergoing a renovation of sorts.  Hopefully, this is good news!

Now that I have learned to deal with cancer, I can get back to normal with my political blogging.  I had to take time off from being analytical, cynical, angry, etc.  All great things for blogging, but terrible if you are trying to beat cancer!

I thought the outdated blog template needed some sprucing up.  I have had the old template for over ten years now, and with a new day goes a new template.  I am open to feedback as I tweak the changes.

For those of you who are over 18, I have another personal blog that's been in the works for a while.  You can shoot over to Diary of an Old Broad and give it a read.

Sunday, May 11, 2014

Rest In Peace, DJ Rix

Bob and I became friends about 10 years ago on AOL.  Together we would rile up the right wingers in chat rooms and bask in our success at bringing stupidity front and center.  We were a tag team and had many years of fun on AOL.

In 2005, I decided to start a blog.  Bob had one and I figured, hey, if Bob can do it, so can I.  My blog was extremely political, while Bob’s blog was more diverse.  I remember when he got angry after my very first post on my very first blog got accolades from a prominent political blog, and I was featured front and center. 

Bob was a mentor to me in the world of blogs.  We never met, but we talked from time to time on the telephone.  He knew me at my core, and we shared a world surrounded by depression and anxiety.  He was there for me when I was suicidal.  He was there for me when I was hospitalized.  He was there for me when I was in pain.  He was there during my cancer treatment.  We were bonded in a way only he and I could understand and enjoy.

He called me on May 4 ... I missed the call.  He never answered when I kept calling him back.

I miss him so much.  I will never forget him.  I hope he stays near me.  I have so many friends in the next world (smiling) ... they will take care of him.  I will pray that my family embraces him and helps on his new journey.  At least the depression will be gone.  And the anxiety. 

I love you Bob. 

Sunday, November 24, 2013

HAIM - The Wire

I heard this group on Diddy's Revolt music channel.  I was "surfing" and passed it, but the beat lingered on, and I went back to the station.  Loved the groove.  Turns out these sisters have a background in performing and music and they are from the valley here in L.A. The back beat got me. 

I tried to upload their song for a few hours (yeah, it gets that bad these days when trying), and finally bought the damn single, twice, for $1.29.  Each single was a remix that I had already downloaded for free.  By the time this was discovered, the song I really wanted was finally downloaded.

Hope you like it.  They are performing on SNL tonight.  The single is not the same as the YouTube video.  I like the video better, but after spending a whopping $2.60 and about four hours, I am done trying to find the right download!

Sunday, November 17, 2013

Almost Out Of The Woods - Cancer Update

The past four months of chemotherapy has been difficult for me. However, I have made it out of harms way, thus far. It started out as a Stage 2/3 diagnosis of cancer in one breast, and a subsequent discovery of something of interest in the other breast, with a prognosis of worst case scenario of a double mastectomy. The tumor has shrunk such that all outward presentations (i.e., dimpled breast, inverted nipple and a lump) disappeared! The activity in the other breast is a ten year period from doing any harm. So, I will have basically outpatient surgery at Cedars, by Dr. Kristie Funk, early December, to go into the breasts under the nipple, take out the two small masses and remove a couple of lymph nodes, no drastic reconstruction required, fast recovery anticipated. I cannot be any more ecstatic. 

I hope to get back to blogging at the start of the new year.

Saturday, September 28, 2013

Taking Time Off

As some of my readers already know, I am battling breast cancer. 

My treatment plan is four months of chemotherapy, surgery to remove either one or both breasts (not determined at this time), followed up by radiation therapy, and then breast reconstruction approximately six months later.

Part of beating cancer is having a positive outlook.  I found that blogging interfered with having that positive outlook because I need to get into an angry space to blog about things that are unjust, unfair, wrong, etc.  I never thought about that "space" or frame of mind before because my outlook on life has always been rather uplifting and cheery (yeah, despite my suicide attempt ...).  Now I find that having to stress over the way things are in today's world brings me to a place that interferes with my ability to stay extremely positive about things.

I don't like not blogging especially since so many things are going on right now.  But I have to consider what my chances are for a future, and blogging about politics right now, for me, is not in the cards.

I hope that by the time I have had surgery the worst is over with the cancer, and I can get back to the bar and grill and do what you all love me for the best ... blog!

You can follow my cancer path on Facebook.

Sunday, August 11, 2013

A Loud Voice In Music Silenced - RIP Eydie Gorme

Showing my age, and also revealing that in addition to being a "hipster" music-wise growing up, I was a fan of old school music.  I LOVED Eydie Gorme and her husband, Steve Lawrence.  Their sound was unique, and I used to pride myself on being able to tell the difference between the sound of Steve Lawrence, Jack Jones and Vic Damone!

Eydie had a big hit in the 1960's called "Blame It On The Bossa Nova," while Steve had huge hits with "Go Away Little Girl," and "Party Doll."

But I enjoyed them the most as perennial guests on the Johnny Carson show!

RIP ...

Thursday, June 27, 2013

I Survived A Suicide Attempt Only To Find Out I Have Cancer

Welcome to my world!

I haven't blogged in a while.  Part of me is distracted by the cancer diagnosis.  Part of me just can't keep up with the bullshit of 2013 life.

I was diagnosed with breast cancer two days ago.  I am still trying to wrap my head around this. 

My daughter hasn't responded to any of my phone calls or texts in a year, even after I indicated I have cancer.  Draw your own conclusions.

Saturday, June 08, 2013

Into The Mystic

Getting over tragic events today ...

Monday's episode of "Defiance" on Syfy (my new favorite show) had Van Morrison's "Into The Mystic" by Jen Chapin, as the closing credits.  The last time I was moved by this song was on Judging Amy.

This rendition was heartbreaking.

If you haven't watched the series ... I suggest you do so.

Friday, June 07, 2013

End Of Life ...

I am still recovering from a sight no one should ever have to see.

A Mac truck ran over a person today, killing them.  It happened on a regular corner that I habit a lot.  The "blood curdling" screams were mind altering.

Roads blocked off; police cars every where; emergency vehicles on the scene.

Just having the vision of the body, lifeless, is more than I can stomach.

To posit a commentary ... why do those that are in four wheel vehicles have such disdain for us that are bi-peds?

So in a hurry to cut corners, at the expense of life?

The driver of the mac truck was making a right turn on a green light (going east) while the pedestrian had the right of way (going north).

Personally, I was the victim of a similar travesty.  If it was a mac truck that ran over me, I, too, would be dead.

The Santa Monica shooting over-shadowed this tragedy, today.
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